Musical Inspiration As I Edit Blood Betrayed

As I've been editing Saint and Solenne's story, this Rod Stewart song has been playing in my head over and over.  I love the emotion in this song. The idea of not wanting to love someone when you can't help yourself is one I love, but I can tell you that writing a character who is so tormented by what he feels can be incredibly draining. The payoff, though, is when your betas and editor tell you that they weren't sure you could top Vasilije, but somehow you made a character so different from him just as wonderful.  I love Saint as much as Vasilije, maybe even more because he's a tortured soul, so to hear those words makes me beam with happiness.  So for a sense of what my hero is feeling in Blood Betrayed, here's Rod singing about love that tears you up inside and still you can't let it go.


My Heart Can't Tell You No

I don't want you
To come round here no more
I beg you for mercy
You don't know how strong
My weakness is
Or how much it hurts me
Cause when you said it over with him
I want to believe it's true
So I let you in knowing tomorrow
I'm gonna wake up missing you
Wake up missing you

When the one you love's
In love with someone else
Don't you know it's torture
I mean it's a living hell
No matter how I try to convince myself
This time I won't lose control
One look in your blue eyes
And suddenly my heart can't tell you no

I don't want you
To call me up no more
Saying you need me
You're crazy if you think
Just half your love
Could ever please me
Still I want to hold you, touch you
When you look at me that way
There's only one solution I know
You gotta stay away from me
Stay away from me

When the one you love's
In love with someone else
Don't you know it's torture
I mean it's a living hell
No matter how I try to convince myself
This time I won't lose control
One look in your sad eyes
And suddenly my heart can't tell you no
My heart can't tell you no

I don't want you
To come round here no more
I beg you for mercy
You don't know how strong
My weakness is
Or how much it hurts me
Cause when you say it's over with him
I want to believe it's true
So I let you in knowing tomorrow
I'm gonna wake up missing you
Wake up missing you

When the one you love's
In love with someone else
Don't you know it's torture
I mean it's a living hell, a living hell
When the one you love's
In love with someone else
Don't you know it's torture
I mean it's a living hell, a living hell
(Simon Climie/Dennis Morgan)